Member Poem

It’s been 3 years now since you’ve been gone
Some days I’m weak other days I’m strong
But everyday I think of you
That’s one thing that I always do
I talk to you inside my head
And think of all the things you’ve said
Then I hear your voice as if you’re here
Your words to me seem oh so clear
Life wont stop it’s fast and it’s real
I keep going, time is the only way to heal
They say heal when really it’s just forgetting
More time in between your times of regretting
That feeling of raw emotion that slaps you in the face
when your mind slips away into that dark place
When you’re back for a moment seeing it all again
Reliving the moments you once had with them
And when you open your eyes, it’s not real
For a split second it’s like you forget how to feel
Then a wave of the  present crashes down and hits you
You Beg for the world to leave you alone and forget you
The pain in your heart crawling up to your throat
A pain unlike any and it makes you choke
You can’t fight it it traps you and you fall to the ground
Thankful at least that there’s no one’s around
No one to see while you lose your composure
Each breath that your breathe get closer and closer
And you wonder to yourself how can you ever be fine 
When will you be able to get away from your mind
Life isn’t the same and it’s like this forever
You’re hurt so bad will it ever get better
And you know it won’t because you lost a piece of your heart
And there won’t ever be a time it won’t tear you apart
But yeah, time heals all that’s what they say
So I guess I’m fine and I’ll be okay