Mother/Child

the fate
that took my mother
which become the mother of
my great fear
today, she is here
her child in tow
and oh, how her child has grown
a hulking presence
casting long shadow over me
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for years i've tried to prove myself
unafraid
to take back the power it stole from me
most days i believe i have conquered the demon-spawn
but then it comes scratching when i least expect it
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11am, Sunday morning
the knock the ominous sound of visitation
i did not answer the door
instead, the monster kicked it in
for the monster will have it's way
and their cruelest  act
allowing us to believe we've overcome our fears
CRASH!
"I'm still here!"
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and it grabs me, drags me
into the hell from which it was born
I am mutely screaming
my mind racing, speculating
the awaiting tortures the creature has in mind
hours and hours of suspended outcomes
i can hear the razor-edged pendulum swinging
Woosh, woosh, woosh, woosh!
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i escaped the beast once before
although you can see that's a lie
I just presumed my absconding
i've been running and running for years
apparently in circles
as here i am
face to face with
mother and child again