Deep fears

My deepest fear.
I'll go through life
without being heard
that in a 100 years
I’ll be forgotten
by history
and all who still 
are here to live it
That I'll never be loved
as hard as I try
I'll always be trying to win
someone.
somewheres'
praise.
That I’ll always be the second option
That I’ll never find true
Shellsplattering love
That I’ll die alone
Long forgotten
long before
I’m ever even gone