with everything and nothing

i.
fool, fool, fool!
i am tethered to you,
yet this is the most
free i have ever been.
i love you with
reds and pinks
eating my skin
and no money left.
i love you with no hands
and no feet and
when i’m left boneless,
i still crawl to you
with my last breath.

ii.
how pathetic and
how awful to still
want to come closer
and closer to you.
even when you
rest in my hands,
i want you more.
i want you to be
rooted into my skin,
marked inside my heart.
tear apart all of me
and make a home out
of the fragments left.
keep the scrapes
for your hunger.
all i will do is thank you.

iii.
and forgive me for
loving you so deeply,
but you make me feel like
a john mayer song.
water has become
the only surface
worth dancing on.
forgive me, but before you,
i didn’t know that
the heat of the sun was
nothing compared to love.
i had never witnessed
the birds sing all the
way to heaven.
and listen hear:
i have never cared for much,
yet you are the one thing
that is absolutely everything to me.

iv.
so name me a clown.
call me a fool
for doing what hurts most
but i have fallen and
i have fallen in love:
with no hope,
and all hope,
with all i have got.