To Josh

Why people cheat is something I will never understand,
Because when you say that you love someone so much
You would do the best that you can.
But I guess you never truly loved me.
And it’s hard to accept
Because everytime I look at you I get this pounding feeling in my chest.
I fall more and more in love with you with every passing day
Something you probably can’t say.
For you I’d give my life
But little did I know you’d be the one holding the knife.
But I’m okay with it
Because you are worth all the pain
And I never want you to think you are the one to blame.
I do this to myself and you cannot convince me otherwise
I’ll always be alone even all the way down to my demise.
I have never loved someone as much as I have loved you
A sad statement that will always remain true.
You are the one that I want something that will never change
But what am I to you the question that still remains.
The moment we met is when I had fell
But was it for you? It’s hard to tell.
A future without you is one I can never see
But I am not the one you want, what the hell is wrong with me?
A question that has never been answered and probably will never be.
I try the best that I can but it is never enough.
Why do people have to run when things get tough?
I try so hard but I never succeed,
I guess love just isn’t for me.
Everywhere I go it just places to be
But everywhere I look you are the one thing I see.
I wish I could go back and hit rewind;
Back to the days when I could call you mine.
I think back to all the happy memories of us
But I can’t help but to wonder why you had to betray my trust.
But no matter what happens every time you look at me
I’d do this over and over to no degree.
I’d give you the world if I had the chance.
If you only you would give me a second glance.
If you love me, please let me know.
Because honestly, I don’t think I could ever let you go.
Always and forever is a promise I intend to keep
But you don’t have to decide now just lay you head and get some sleep.