I Don't Give a Damn

To be real I don't
I really don't
Is what I want to believe
To be kind is a choice
To be mean rejoice
I can't struggle enough
What are the confines that keep me?
Is it me or is it you?

I really wish I could
I see the people who do
It hurts doesn't it?
Not to care seems like it hurts just as much to care
What matters?
Values have feelings
I guess an unawareness is what I'm after
Especially since I'm filled with over aware
Too aware of fault or not enough
So it seems
Point of view

Silencing those voices they chime up again
Starting over and over
Am I even making any steps?
I see the light for one day, darkness for nine