I Try

I try positivity, and
strike and crack and crush the stone
of negativity
suppressing me, it shatters.
It is magma, volatile,
threatening to dissolve my humanity.

I try confidence, and
splash and sink and ride the tide
of doubt
drowning me, it flows.
It is water, bleak,
threatening to engulf my opportunities.

I try happiness, and
climb and scale and conquer the mountain
of sorrow
smothering me, it presses.
It is earth, heavy,
threatening to choke my clarity.

I try hope, and
shield and block and ignore the roar
of disappointment
shaking me, it deafens.
It is thunder, explosive,
threatening to stifle my progress.

I try nothing.