Ineptae / Silliness (Latin)

nunc virtus meus meam pravitam praeponderent
solum spero atque me totus in totum opprimunt
si quando timorem desperatione vincatur, si quando...
heu, nescio

Translation:

now I can only hope that my virtues outweigh my vices
and they weigh down on me through and through
even if fear could be defeated by despair, even if...
eish, I don’t know