Sanity

You make me question my own sanity
why can I not get you out of my head?

You cursed me and made me feel worthless
you have pushed me away and treated me with disregard
and yet...my heart aches for you

I feel so confused and repulsed by my own weakness

I have never felt so rejected

To watch your life play out in teasing conversations with other women
while I'm sitting on the sidelines, a silent witness to it all

My heart aches, my body is torchered, my arms are empty

I should commit myself, to a laced up jacket in a little white room,
where I can at least understand why I'm there

For I have found the one in whom I can never recover