Tears Of A Clown

Against a willowy wailing backdrop of inner chaos,
an indignant incendiary mask stifles the simmering cauldrons,’
of a stoic stage clown post lachrymose performance wearily stunning yet stung,
or the surreptitious posture of the laugh it off as mediocre bypass,
iron clad ruthless repression of bone rattle indignation a seeker of impoverished aperture,
whilst many can manage to laugh through their toppling tears,
this feeble feat can be turgidly reversed as in  cavernous crying through laughter,
hurtful disappointment bordering on intense calamity a ferocious challenge for even the stoutest,
among us whose dubious doleful doubtful number can vary in spiral coil statistic,
quite querulously according to rigour analysis,
epic epicentres of fractured tumultuous relationship can impact noisily and noisome,
sweet soul mate whose intimate integrity seemed somehow impregnable,
as imperiously impregnable as the most fortified fortress encased,
can appear or seem striated with untwining layers in risible rupture,
who among the human species wouldn’t be consumed in a conflagration,
rapid rage fire scourge scorching the tufts of tender
leanings,
a multitude of factors can impel those who from birth may sense an odds against repeat pattern,
and thus react by forming flippant festoon on parade syndrome,
Judgement perhaps not so judicious if one is born to,
fortune strewn trajectory each route or each path,
the uproarious laughter an adrenaline when savoured in rafter ruction capacity theatre,
thunderbolt clamour of an audience on a similar raw wound quest as ambivalent ache,
wound salve or beneficial balm at a perilous proximity where sodden eye meets sodden eye,
a comity of claustrophobic cloud at the cusp of a pointer stretching  compass,
a mutuality of vacillating directionless dementia whose incubus veers on erroneous eruption,
fallacious shrink  entanglement when to suppurate in,
discolour this strident alarm that might not be innocuous,
regardless of environmental setting the compulsory comic driven by root source despair,
root sore in tandem with as of yet unfathomable  abyss abominator askance being carried forward,
creepy shadow inkling that the perpetual humorist gag cracking is beholden to some amorphous past,
but repressed restrained emotional festering sores will linger and loiter with distain,
the episodes one flees have  a  faster speed ingrained in legs  that never seem to falter,
remedial assessment a formidable ferocious obstacle when addicted  poser dreams of self delusion ensuing,
to darken facade compromised in kaleidoscope colour public gaze a worsening hindrance,
chronic need that ravenous never sated hunger whose stomach that vast vacuous void glutinous,
are there threads and shreds
in desperation where the suddenness of  illuminating
rescue tantalising,
wretched dogmatic stubborn
blind pathway where relief is a tragic trifle so futile in its folly,
rationale a usurper of the withering wisp sagesse  constructing brick red block on block immensely too dull