Why Me?

by Debro36
Every goal i want to accomplish is set back

Negativity takes over dark clouds that cicle me
I find it hard to fight back the tears I need to cry
Knowing I cannot talk because nobody listens
These feelings weigh heavily on my heart
I want to feel happy when I wake up
I want to feel motivated to start my day
I worry about what people think of me 
I constantly play their thoughts in my head
Saying to myself, "she is fat and ugly"
"She has a bad attitude"
"Will friends clown me for going out with her?"
Unsettle thoughts continue to race my mind
I sit here in the dark alone
A nursery for a bedroom
No closet only endless walls
Happiness doesn't exist in an imperfect world
Nobody to turn to in times of need
The air mattress beneath me rocks uncontrollably 
Barely 22 and i have to ask myself , "Why me?"