Member Poem

I don't want to die I just don't wanna live
'Cause I made much more mistakes, than you can forgive.
Death means taking those little things that make me happy in a word where everything is soulles sorrow.

I don't want to die
There's so many things I want to try
So many people i don't wanna leave,
But I don't want to survive only live.

I don't want to live
I want my leaving soul to rip my heart my mind and brain.
I want my bodys lock to open
So that all the sorrow takes my hope in life

I don't want to die I just don't wanna live.
Maybe thats why I run in to daydreams from this mysery.
Maybe destiny chose me to bear all this pain.
Maybe some day life makes up for all the lost fantasies.

But will I be able to survive so I can heal
Maybe I can realize happyness is real
Until then leave me be let me drown in peace
Let me wonder away in those daydreams.