Member Poem

Lock me in a padded room, take me somewhere where my heart consumes all the lies that fill my head and leave me to worry all full with dread. I try to speak but nobody can hear me. It's getting harder to breathe, take my soul if you will; it’s waiting for it’s next kill. Should I scream? My thoughts are slowly killing me. Should I fly? Some days I just want to die. I cannot cry, my tears are becoming dry. I cannot scream, my voice is slowly leaving me. Where do I go from here, come run away with me my dear. We watch as the world fades, slowly into ember grey. Our hearts are terrifically hollow, observe my demons as they follow. I listen to the sound of your voice echoing in my ear, I realize it isn’t your voice that I hear. My demons are calling me, for it’s only you I truly see. I sit and ponder, I look to you who slowly wanders. Chaos, chaos fills my brain; chaos, chaos I’m going insane. Insanity crosses my mind and I believe I’m no longer sane, where does all this chaos come from that swarms my brain? You hold onto me for dear life, please don’t my darling I’m no longer alive. I can sense your panic and you lose control of yourself, stop tearing yourself down. We’re living in a ghost town, everything turning upside down. Reality doesn’t exist, but only with you I must admit. Hold onto what you hold dear, for I’m no longer near. Rest your weary head, we can die alone together. Isn’t this what you want? Are you ready for the hunt? Steadfast and slow, soon the creatures will know. The demons are chasing me and I can’t seem to escape, protect me like a cape. I long to understand everything inside my head, I watch as you slowly put me to bed. This is where I belong, with you I can stay strong. Chaos, chaos fills my brain; chaos, chaos I’m going insane. I wake up from what seems like a deep slumber, I notice you’re no longer beside me. I reach out and my demons aggressively grab my hands, I begin to plead. I beg them to let me go, one of them growls at me, I assume the answer is no. They take me to a faraway place somewhere deep in my mind, a place I chose to forget, a place I left behind. I look around and long to hear your voice, I whisper for only you can hear me, you don’t have a choice. The demons pull me farther and farther in the darkest depth of my mind, I see you near and reach out to hold you close. You tell me everything will be okay and I no longer have to be in pain, the demons release me as they shriek my name. You and I end it all, so we’re no longer in pain, just remember it was all a part of the plan we had made. Chaos, chaos fills my brain; chaos, chaos I’m going insane.