What do I do when the black gates are shut How do I live with the burns of every touch Frantic attempts to climb up for no reason Am I being punished for my amorous treason Am I kept out for moving on with my life Instead of diving in painful nether fire Am I forced out and thrown into the pit For some demon's amusement, a pleasure rather grim - It's written on the wall There is nowhere to go No solace for the broken No time to recover - There is nowhere to go But is there someplace to stay Do I really have to fight I just want to feel safe Do you miss the one who hurt you Do you miss being outside I don't think I ever wronged you So stop churning my insides What do I do when there is no way forth The barb wire is made of tiny prickly thorns The wayback shrouded with all this toxic mist My venom&his remedy connected in the bliss Chemicals deluge my ever-splitting brain My life so futile, I keep living in vain The only way out is going downwards My fingers always bleed, the dirt is so coarse - It's carved on my skin I have to dive in And leave so much more stiffer Or crying with bleeding fingers - Crying with bleeding fingers Cause colors are mixed up The ground looks like my flesh The dirt has made me dark I keep digging down And all I find is blood But I know I will make it The closure warms my heart I bathe in my torn flesh with deep primal joy Dug a hole that lead to what you cant destroy On the way up I saw the treasure chest What if I completed my tempestuous quest Inside the chest lies the key to the gates A note to inform me that they've gone away I only ever needed a little peace of mind But all that is left is my triumph's demise And here I stand shattered Here I stand so bitter My tears sear my sorrow And all of my stitches All I had to do was try to fucking listen All we had to do was work to help ourselves All I had to do was understand I'll wither If we dont fight together to get through this hell