Classic Poem

Now, as never, you fill me with love and sorrow;
if any tear is left me, I quicken it
to wash our two obscurities.

Now, as never, I need your presiding peace;
yet already your throat is but a whiteness
of suffering, suffocating, coughing, coughing,
and your whole being but a screed of dying strokes
overflowing with dramatic farewells.

Now, as never, your essence is venerable
and frail your body's vase, and you can give
me only the exquisite affliction of
a clock of agonies, ticking for us towards
the icy minute when the feet we love
must tread the ice of the funereal boat.

From the bank I watch you embark; the silent
river sweeps you away, and you distil
within my soul the climate of those evenings
of wind and dust when only the church-bells chime.

My spirit is a cloth of souls, a cloth
of souls of an eternally needy church,
it is a cloth of souls bedabbled with wax,
trampled and torn by the ignoble herd.

I am but a penurious parish nave,
a nave where endless obsequies are held,
because persistent rain prevents the coffin
from being brought out on the country roads.

The rain without me and within the hollow
clamour of a psalmist, louder and louder;
my conscience, by the water sprinkler aspersed,
is a cypress sorrowing in a convent garden.

Now my rain is flood, and I shall not see
the sunshine on my ark, because my heart
on the fortieth night must break for good;
my eyes preserve not even a faint gleam
of the solar fire that burned my corn;
my life is nothing but continuance
of exequies under baleful cataracts.