Member Poem

averse to risk livingsocial on my own, the dichotomy, weak
with self confidence animosity, enmity, familiarity, et cetera
i staid under roof of me father and mother
dreading every malevolent utterance
when father requested he speak 
   
not about choice topic de jure brought a twinkle to my eye      
but that all to familiar monologue finding me
standing like stone wall hearing,
tuning out with equally predictable trademark demurely meek 
 
pose with hands crossed against chest
of the then easily intimidated guy      
despite feeling effects of utter ennui and fatigue
attempted to stand tall against
tsunami verbal typhoon itching to drown out said battle creek
  
when asked capisce? comprende? farshtayst?
looked blankly at floor well nigh       
or pretended to stare at something
extremely fascinating on the kitchen wall         
for he may as well asked if i understand 
an unfamiliar language such as greek   

or getting successful results
yammering away at common house fly      
possibly seething inside (p’raps equally swatted)
ready to lash out into a brawl held back by fear
plus in comparison to me pop –
just a itty bitty pipsqueak   

who felt onrushing of overpowering
desire to collapse and cry      
compounded by growing urge to urinate from natural
urethral call spoke nada word, nor gave hint
of hearing loathsome blather that did reek   

like decomposition of fetid dead living entity
that began to putrefy and continue to stomach
verbal capitalone hash tagging, outrageous un  speak    
able offal to mine ears, tugged impetus
under warm blankets to crawl!