Member Poem

I don't want to die I just don't want to live,
'Cause I made much more mistakes, than you can forgive.
Death means taking those little things that make me happy, in a word where everything is soulles sorrow.
I don't want to die,
There's so many things I want to try,
So many people i don't want to leave,
But I don't want to survive only live.
I don't want to live,
I want my leaving soul to rip my heart my mind and brain.
I want my bodys lock to open,
So that all the sorrow takes my hope in life.
I don't want to die, I just don't want to live.
Maybe thats why I run in to daydreams from this mysery.
Maybe destiny chose me to bear all this pain.
Maybe some day life makes up for all the lost fantasies.
But will I be able to survive so I can heal,
Maybe I can realize happyness is real.
Until then leave me be, let me drown in peace.
Let me wonder away in those daydreams.