I wish the threads of my fear
Could be woven into a noose so I could finally end it
And I am not suicidal, I just want to kill my fear
But at this point my terrors and myself are becoming indistinguishable
And it’ll continue to be parasitic
Until fear has finally taken over me
Or maybe it already has
Maybe it's already begun making the rope out of my own flesh
And maybe that's why my chest is always tight
And every second
That ticks by
I find it harder and
Harder
To breathe
Maybe Im already on my way to ascension
Although I don't remember heaven ever looking like
A body dangling from a ceiling
But it often feels
That's as high as I can go
Or ever even want to
I don’t quite remember when my fear killed me but it seems like
It didn’t stop the murdering when I stopped breathing
Because doing so would just be a waste although
It seems a waste is all I’ve ever amounted to be
My fear began to take a knife and with a hand
Steadier than a God
Or a broken see-saw
With no wind to upset it
And nobody around to fulfill it
And it started skinning me alive
And I tried to scream
I tried to call out for help
But my cries only sounded like a wave
A wave thats calming to everyone else
But no one seems to recognize
That waves is a sign of a storm
And a storm
Is a sign of lightning
and lightning can paralyze
And now when Im finally breathless
All the sound I was able to produce was as quiet
As me blinking
And it took my skin and fabricated a suit
One that could allow it to disguise itself as me
And as I lay there bleeding, it looked down at me
And even I couldn’t tell who was who
Except the only distinguishable difference
Left in the screaming pains of my silence
Was that I
Was the one left
Dangling from a ceiling.
And that I
I was the one left
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