Member Poem

Her smile was the sun of my universe, her eyes the brightest stars in the galaxy. When she cried, my world rained, but when she was happy, I couldn’t imagine anything more beautiful. Still, I couldn’t help wishing it was me who brought that smile to her lips when the clouds threatened to gather overhead.
The boy whose hand tugged at her waist when he wanted a kiss was the one thing that stood in my way of a happy ever after. When his fingers brushed back her hair and cupped her face, I had to bow my head and swallow my envy like glass shards scraping my throat. To watch her be with someone who didn’t deserve her, who didn’t treat her in the way she so desperately needed to be treated, was hell. The hard truth was she didn’t belong to me, and she never would. As long as she thought he was the one, I would be invisible to her.
A year went by, and she eventually moved on, broken down by the ring on another girl’s finger. Now, she searched the crowd for someone who would pick her up and build her back again, but I didn’t meet her pleading gaze. How could I after what she had done to me? Week after week, month after month, I had watched her spend every spare moment with the wrong person, belonging to someone who used her for his personal gain. If she had only seen the one in the corner praying, she would glance away from his lips for one second, just long enough to see what she was missing. And now that her heart had shattered, mine belonged to someone else, someone who had seen me and not ignored me. She may have been the one once upon a time, but that was a long time ago. Times change, people change, and now she’s all alone while I dance in the sunshine with another. It turns out her eyes weren’t the only stars in the galaxy.