Member Poem

I told u I was fine 
All I need is a glass of water 
To take some pills 
I never knew u cared 
Your eyes were blank with blackness 
That was all I needed 
You wouldn't under stand all the nights I spent shivering 
Hiding from my dreams 
I would paint the sky with my tears 
I have lost too many times 
I have failed too many things 
My arms are the proof of my revenge 
Memories hopefully forgot come flooding back in 
I grab for a knife to cut out the pain, horror, memories, and the nightmares I have of you 
While I bleed I see the memories, horror, pain, and nightmares start to flow out with the colors of blood. 
Then the knife falls from my hand and drops into the puddle of memories, horror, pain,   and nightmares with the color of blood red. 
When you need to clean your sins my wrist were made to bleed 
I can't sleep tonight the demons of mind take over and haunt my soul and mind 
Every night is a sleepless night when the demons taunt and play and rip apart you insides and blood filled with memories, pain, horror, and nightmares come flowing out in the tears the roll down my cheeks in the middle of a restless night. 
Each restless night I spend with the demons I make peace with the darkness 
The last night I spend with these demons will be the last night I live.